Killing Meat

Mirra Fine - Blog

The pig roast in San Antonio was a joyous affair for most. Friends were telling old stories, sharing beer and wine and setting up chairs in the shade to stay cool from the hot, hot heat of the 110° weather. Everyone was staring — salivating — expectantly at the china box filled with smoking coals and two boars which had been cooking all day. The meat was about to fall off the bone and the smell of pork was carried through the warm air. An adorable little girl was playing with her dolls on a bench nearby and two little dogs were anxiously awaiting impending scraps. Daniel and I had invited a new friend to come down from Memphis and join us for the event.

The boars were splayed in half so that you could see their entire rib cage. The meat was cooking to gorgeous colors of reds and purples. And I was filming as people walked by. Most commented on the aesthetics: the smell or look of the meat. Some talked about their experiences with hunting wild boar; some talked about the problem of this invasive species on their land. But then one very woman came up, looked at the boars and laughed: “wow, they have seen better days”. If I hadn’t been feeling numb, I would have been saddened by her comment. But I couldn’t really feel anything. Instead I just looked at her for a moment, and then back at the meat.

There is a very big difference between attending a pig roast, and actually bringing a pig that you killed to a pig roast. I saw the wild boar family trapped in a cage trying to get out as we pulled up to that ranch in south Texas the day before. I could hear the sounds of them thrashing about attempting to save one another. It was a mother and father boar and three babies. They were all scared, squealing, trying to survive. They were shot one by one in that cage. The mother and one baby were killed for the roast, the other three were killed shortly after by the rancher.

Wild boar is such a problem in Texas that this rancher in particular traps pigs almost daily. Not for eating, just to get them off his property. So they are killed and thrown out for coyotes. This is a common practice in places where feral pigs are out of control. They are a nuisance, like bunnies in your garden or ants in your kitchen (although these guys also occasionally kill dogs and hurt people).

Even knowing that, its hard to witness a death. Daniel says that if there ever were a meat that a vegetarian such as myself could eat, this would be it — as the death had a purpose of ecosystem management. But regardless of circumstance, regardless of invasive, feral or nuisance, it is still a life. One that humans have created out of mistakes that has now grown out of control. So the answer is to kill as many as possible —  by hunting, trapping or Rambo-flown helicopters. I want there to be other options. There has to be. But I don’t know what they are.

It’s a strange time we live in: where there is such a great feeling of compassion for (and companionship with) animals and at the same time, such disconnect and vast disposal. The filming of this episode covered the two hardest days I’ve experienced on this trip.  For me, this is an eye opening glimpse of the truth behind our food. And it’s hard to see.

 

  • Meredith

    Beautiful post. I live in Texas, my family has a ranch, and we live off the land as much as possible. We eat the grass fed cows we care for,  wild turkeys, deer, and wild boars. As a foodie and real food enthusiast cooking with wild game has been fantastic but I will agree with you staring down a barrel at bambie is not fun. We only take what we need and use almost every part of teh animal. A few years ago we stoped hunting and the family moved off the ranch for about a year and we didn’t visit much except to take care of the heard. When we returned what we found was horrible. We lost almost all of our deer and turkey from some sort of disease. You would just be driving down the road and there were carcasses everywhere. There was also a large boar population now in the area. It was a wake up call for us and since then  we have been working hard on land management. Our ranch and wildlife is becoming healthy again and repopulating slowly. It has been a struggle to accept that I’m taking an animal’s life but when I know that I’m feeding my family food straight from the earth with out added hormones or chemicals and I know what happens when you let your land become overpopulated it is a sacrifice I have to make.

    It’s a strange world we live in now on the boarders of commercial food and meat packaging and the return to “living off the land” practices. I congratulate you for being brave enough to film and present your point of view.

  • http://www.facebook.com/duffyj1 Joe Duffy

    Mirra – Thanks for your post.  I think that particular episode did a good job of showing the connection between the live animal and its meat.  Most shows of this nature would’ve probably panned away or did what ever it could to keep the viewer comfortable.  It was a good balance of advocacy and culinary interests.  I think many of your audience are aware of the widening gulf of consciousness between the animal and the plate.

    I’m glad you spoke up and made your opinion heard.

    Cheers!

  • Elissa at Poor Man’s Feast

    Magnificent post–

  • Foody2 and Oliver

    Mirra, you have again managed to be the window on this once again unchartered territoory for people like me from the northern part of the US. Even though you have a strong belief, I don’t feel I am being strong-armed to think a certain way. Your camera work as well as your writing shows a desire to be fair and try to see another point of view. Keep up the good work.

  • Nileswine

    Mirra, you were a trooper and I love what you have to say about it. 

  • http://twitter.com/nehedar Emilia Cataldo

    that’s really sad mirra..

  • http://www.findyourglow.com Julia Sarver

    Wow, this is a really powerful article. It’s funny because I do eat meat – always raised in a ‘happy’ place – but I always stop and think what it was like for the animal to die before eating. It’s always a challenge for me – I’m allergic to wheat and dairy, and when I completely skip meat and animal proteins I get sick. I go back and forth all the time because I feel so uncomfortable knowing that I’m contributing to a life being taken. I always debate about how to share my feelings about this with people, but you’ve done such a beautiful job of painting a vivid, disturbing picture. Thanks for putting this out there – very brave.